Personal Stuff

It has been 2 years now, since my last relationship ended. I forgot the feeling of being in love. Forgot how is it to be “kilig”. I have been into a relationship for 3 times. I had my first boyfriend named Pai, when I’m about to graduate junior high school in Jakarta. I could name it a puppy love I guess, because I was still 14 by that time. It lasted for a couple of months though. The reason why it lasted was because I was too overwhelmed with my new life in senior high school and I just didn’t want to be tied up. Quite a silly reason, but that’s it! Next to Pai is guy named Irvan. He was in the same batch with my sister in high school. He was a year advanced. He actually courted me for quite sometime, but I was too afraid to take a decision. At last, I decided to give it a try. The sad part was, I had to move to Manila as my dad was assigned to work there. Our relationship was only 10 days old by then. Oh yes, I did cry a river when I had to leave. But the relationship pushed through for almost a year. It was quite long, because we were still able to keep in touch through calls, letters and emails. But like almost all of the long distance relationships, it has to come to the end. I told him that this could not work out, and for sure I’ll be staying in Manila for 4 years, maybe more. I’m glad that he understood. When I last broke up was 2 years ago with a Filipino guy named Bobbie. Bobbie was my classmate in college and I had the longest relationship with this guy. Our relationship lasted for almost 2 years, we had to break up because there are differences that made us could not push through with the relationship. This last break up was the worst of all, too much feeling still remains. But I just had to move on. With all the relationships I’ve been into, never lasted because of a third party, and I’m happy about it. I still keep in touch with all of them once in a while. I’m glad that even though the special relationship is over, we still remain friends. I’m always engaged in a relationship because I have the feelings for that person, not for the sake of having a boyfriend or because of peer pressure. That is big No No. In the future, when I’ll start with a new relationship, this time would be so different, I have standards to meet. I’m hoping to meet an Indonesian, a religious one, with high sense of humor and a good job. Oh yes, like what I’ve said in the previous post, I’m already a woman. So this time, I’ll have to think wisely. =)